Thursday, November 15, 2007

Please Let Me Be Me


Once upon a time, I was born,

Born freely, and once strong.

You used to be my inspiration when I was small,

Even though you don’t seem to bother at all.


Everything you did, so much pleased me,

As if I was seeing a person so saintly.

I imitated you and I dream of being you.

When that time happens? I don’t have a clue…


You told me to follow everything you stated,

Even though my young mind knew, I would be different.

I was challenged by the things you’ve done,

And greeted my own dreams gone…


But all you did was put me down

And my eyes are my only weapon against your painful words

I cried lots of tears, when I started to realize

I couldn’t be like you...


I followed a road with a marked path

To be on the same end you have right now

Then, it was too late to discover that

I couldn’t be like you…

In my struggles to follow you,

I didn’t know how it was to be true

I became seriously mislead,

And the wide path is now narrow instead.


Please, let me be me…

Let me choose the path I wish to take.

Don’t give me markers on the winding path of life.

Make me discover the consequences it has…


You already had your turn in this journey,

Now it must end.

Please, don’t control my own…

Let me start anew…


And make me learn from my mistakes…
~anamellie~

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

From A Broken Heart


Tuesday evening


3 months, 24 days and 6 hours since we’ve talked.


I sat on my bed and thought of you.


I opened my ears to enable myself hear


The most pleasing sound I will hold dear…


Your voice…



But all I heard was the deafening sound of silence


Emptying the running blood through my veins


Tears rolled down my face


As my heart shouted in agony and anguish,


Engulfing the once silent lair I was in.


I felt sick as I heard my head screaming



“Why? Why?”


Tears… more tears streamed down my face


As I came to the realization


That you’d be forever gone for good


How come you’ve let me fall?


When you’re still not ready to catch me at all?


It’s been hard and complicated for me to move on…



Move on to a place where there’s no you


A place where there’s only pain and emptiness…



Why did you do this to me?

How come you’ve tricked me with words of sweet forever?


Then just torment me like this?



You left me… along with our good memories


Left me, and leave me


With the pieces of my broken heart on the floor


You caused me a terrible heartache and shattered my soul,


But I still regret the times we’ve happily shared together


Enjoying what our so-called love has to offer



But as I sit here, reminiscing what we’ve gone through


I realized that everything’s just not good enough


Because if it were, you’d still be here with me…



…and I’ll forever remain in your heart.



~anamellie~

Monday, September 24, 2007

The Melancholic Price


It was years since I last laid eyes on her.
Dreaming of her in this dark and ruthless chamber
I wish she’s still mine, but fate’s so unkind
My head’s in a swirl, cause she’s always on my mind…
I really tried to forget her
But no matter how I try
These tears would fill my eye
I wish she’s here with me, here with me to stay
And I would be in high spirits every day
But now she’s gone, and it’s only now,
I realized that I love her still somehow
But my once blissful heart is now throbbing with pain
I long to see her smile, I’m feeling insane
I know I’ve wounded her heart
And I’m saying sorry from the start
I’ve acted so dumb, I’ve been so foolish
I am so stupid, I’m even boorish
I wish she’ll forgive me, and she will stay
But I know, this the melancholic price I have to pay
But wherever she is, I hope she’ll know
That I still love her so much, I miss her so…

~anamellie~